Frozen

I'm losing my job on August 10.  I have no prospects for afters.  I've applied for a few and have a couple more applications to send out.

A social media friend has been harassing me about finding a job for the last month.

Every time I start thinking about a new job waves of panic hit me and I'm frozen with indecision.

I don't know what I want to do.  Should I try an academic job, a non-profit, or give it up and go into corporate America?

I don't know where to live.  Do I look for local jobs or do I move away.  I'd like to move far away but I have a very thin support structure as it is.  I'd have nothing if I'd move away.  But if I stay, there may not be any jobs.  My parents are getting older.  I should be responsible and stay and help them.

I think about the jobs I've had and how I've wrecked every one in some way.

All of this going on while trying to write letters selling myself and I just freak out and retreat.