Burn! He He he! Fire!

I have saved every single draft and version of my dissertation.  I started my dissertation in the fall of 2006.  The final product was about 250 pages long.  It's a huge stack of paper...about a foot high I'd guess.  Thousands of sheets.  What to do with all of it now that I'm finished?  Well the responsible thing would have been to recycle it.  Yeah..but that's no fun.  Photo buddy and I burned it!  Every last sheet.  I giggled maniacally while it burned.    It was very satisfying.  There goes my old life.  I made some movies which I will share as soon as I edit them and add music :)

It's Not Free Ding Dongs

On Friday, January 20, President Obama announced that there would essentially be no religious exemption from the requirement to provide birth control, abortions and sterilizations at no cost through insurance programs.

You can read more about it:  here, here and pretty much anywhere there's a Catholic that follows Church teaching.

I am not going to discuss whether it is right or wrong.  I would like to address certain conceptions that the spokesman for Planned Parenthood and many others who support this regulation seem to hold.  They talk about how it is so great that women will be able to afford this essential health care item.  And it will be free.  

Yeah.  About that.  I've never known drug companies or insurance companies to give things away no strings attached.  My guess is that the insurance companies will just raise premiums.  So you'll be paying for it anyway.

Here's the other little tidbit they have neglected.  Birth control pills maybe free, but you still need a prescription. And that requires an office visit.  Which may or may not be free, as it all depends, apparently, on how the visit is coded.

So what good are free pills if I can't get a prescription for them?

is bored.

Let's troll the Internet.

Has started discussions on

• what is really food and what is not food.
• Marriage
• Is Newt a conservative.  
• has gone back at and poked the Spiritual but not Religious thread.

Uh

Me:  Can I ask a silly question?
Boss:  I expect nothing less....
Me:  :/

Ringtone Fail

I was expecting a very important phone call from the vet.  For some reason, I can't hear my ringtone at different spots in the building I work in.  I did not want to miss this call so I decided to change ringtones so that I could hear it.

I'm talking to a coworker and we hear a phone ring.  I'm looking around going what's that noise and she's like I don't think it is my phone.  Then I'm like my pocket's vibrating.  EEK!  It's my phone.

eye roll at me

Woot Wine

Now that I drink wine (ok really fruity sweet wine), wine woot off is a lot more interesting....

Lack of Future

I'm 35. I'm single. I've only had one boyfriend in my life and I was a miserable failure at that. I have one friend in real life. I have little prospect of a husband or friends. My boss wants to know what is wrong with me.

All I can think of is how did it come to this. I can't say I don't know how it happened as I know full well how it came about.

My parents and I don't get it along. I 'm sure my parents are lovely people but they are not the parents I needed. I swore I would never be like them.

There's something to be said for being too smart for your own good. I had done research and discovered I was at high risk for marrying a man like my father. I couldn't let that happen. I began to harden my heart.

When I was 19, the doctor told me i most likely would not be able to have children. At the time, I was strangely relieved. I was worried I would not be a good mother and now I wouldn't need to worry.

I became more resolved not to date or anything. After all, what man would want to marry me given I would most. Likely be unable to bear him children.

School kept me occupied and distracted. I never seemed to build. A circle of friends.

Now that school is over I am at a complete loss.

Right now you are saying to your self surely you had dreams and goals? While growing up? I had one goal: get a phd. That was it and I've done it.

Honestly, I never believed I would still be alive at 30 let alone 35. So I dreamed no dreams.

I am struggling to cope and honestly I am not coping well.