Early

For the last few weeks, I have been waking up around 5-5:30 am.  Sometimes, I wake up even early.  Since I go to bed somewhere between 11pm and 12 am, I'm not exactly thrilled with this development.

I've been on the sad and even cranky side and have been blaming it on lack of sleep.  Except this weekend, I managed to sleep later.  I was incredibly happy on Sunday.

I'm not happy now.  I again woke up at 5:30 am this morning.  It's not like I'm up, I'm in some half-awake, half-asleep daze, but my mind is awake.  Really awake.  And it starts running and thinking and running and thinking.  And I could feel myself getting sadder and sadder.  I can't seem to stop the thoughts and the running.

I suppose that if I had time to come to an equilibrium, it would not be so bad.  Except I'm never reaching equilibrium.