Monday, July 16, 2012

Wonders

how I'm supposed to lose weight via exercise when it is 100 out?

Especially since I've managed to get sick from the heat 3x this summer....

Saturday, July 14, 2012

What Dreams May Come

I've noticed over the past few months that I've been dreaming a great deal about me.  In the past, I would never dream about myself.  Well, maybe I did, but I certainly didn't remember it.

This morning, I wasn't feeling well so I ended up taking an afternoon nap.  And had a very vivid dream.

The dream started out at my wedding.  It was a very small wedding.  I don't remember much of that part of the dream except I bowed to my husband's wishes.  There was colored light which makes me think it was in a Catholic Church of some sort.

The wedding reception was outside.  I don't remember much of that either, except it was very green.  And I danced with my husband.  Which isn't very logical given it was outside and there was grass but it was a dream.

The honeymoon was camping.  I vaguely remember smelling salt so we must have gone to the ocean.

Then I moved into his house which was our house now.  And we had a long discussion about my quilting room.  I wanted it in his office or at least on the same floor as his office but he insisted there was no room.  And then I was like well your office is going to have to move anyway and he was like why?  it's my office!  And I responded well your office is going to be the baby's room.  He moved his office that day.

OH!  How could I forget!  When we got back from the honeymoon, my husband gave me my wedding present:  a basset hound named Petey.

I remember lots of warmth and feelings of safety.

And then my sister woke me up with cold hands.

The annoying thing is I did not see what my husband looked like or if I even knew him.  Highly annoying given I feel like I'm running out time.  Nor did I see what the baby looked like.  Baby had a lovely bright colored puppy quilt.

These dreams are so lovely yet so heartbreaking.  I can't even put into words why.

Friday, July 13, 2012

Thursday, July 12, 2012

If only I knew

I have been asked if I am doing God's Will.

I can't answer the question.  I don't know what God's Will is for me.

I have the sinking suspicion I am not however.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Show Me How To Live

"You gave me life, now show me how to live"

Inspired by a discussion on God and why He made me.

Yeah, just guess where I fall...


I find the timing of this rather hysterical given conversations I've recently had....