happiness

I'm incredibly happy today.  So I decided to share my happiness by making:
2 batches of peppermint snowball cookies
2 batches of peppermint brownies
1 batch diet soda cupcakes
1 batch champagne cupcakes

I can't decide if champagne is better by itself or in cupcakes...

Learning Opportunity

I'm trying to do the Fast, Pray, Give challenges from Busted Halo.  I'm doing a horrid job.  I forget to look.  Then I forget them.  I couldn't find this mornings.  I finally found it:

Lenten MicroChallenges: FAST from describing anything done by yourself or anyone else today as a failure or mistake. PRAY that you might always experience failures as learning opportunities rather than as judgements on yourself. GIVE time to doing something you're not confident you'll succeed at.

Right.  I've screwed the pooch on this one.  My life is one big "learning opportunity" Except I don't ever seem to learn.  

Cleaning

Not what I was hoping to do on a Saturday morning.

I was going to make movie buddy cookies instead but he thought I should clean my room.  spoilsport.

I'm finding all sorts of interesting things.  I still haven't found the book I've lost.  I found a letter that is headed to the shredder.  Rather thankful I lost it honestly now that I'm reading it.  Wow I'm rather emo and pathetic in it.

I did find $2.  I'm hoping to find more.

And I found nylons.  I'm a little confused as to why I even have nylons.

Why am I supposed to wear makeup again?

Eek
Chemicals!
http://dailyinfographic.com/beautiful-problems-infographic/infographic-skin-final
http://dailyinfographic.com/fatal-attraction-cosmetics-and-chemicals-infographic

Maybe I should stop using soap....

Identity

Last night, movie buddy and I watched Cypher. In this movie, a man is essentially brainwashed twice as 2 different men. I'm thinking about this as I am pondering yet again why seraphic singles makes me so upset. I'm also thinking about female catholic bloggers and what they think women should be wearing at Mass.

I think it all boils down to identity. I don't have one anymore. I used to be identified as a student. I'm not a student anymore. Most women my age can also be identified as wife if not mother as well. I think of my former female classmates, all but 1 (and me) are married.

I don't know who I am. Reading these blogs gives me the sense that I am lacking. And worse what I am is wrong

I should just stop reading...

There's a blog called Seraphic Singles and it's mostly advice for single women.  I honestly don't know why I read it anymore.  It only upsets me.  Because I'm everything "wrong" and it just feeds into the feelings of hopelessness and ineptness I have.

This morning's post has actually made me cry. And now I feel even more hopeless.

WOOT pt 1

Lenten Goal 1 accomplished.  I have finished reworking my CV!